A new road...

A lot of things happened in my life these last few days. It affected me emotionally, mentally and physically.

It was hard for me to absorb everything and face reality.

I just wished it was a nightmare, one that I could wake up from.

I couldn't accept the facts.

I've been trying to understand, why... why does this happen to me. Why do I have to feel such pain, such heart brokenness.

I just gave myself time to cool off from this. I needed rest.

While I was doing devotion, a simple passage from the book of Jeremiah caught my attention.

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." (Jeremiah 29:11)

These events in my life happened for a reason. I may not clearly see it yet but I'm getting there.

The Lord has a bright and wonderful future for me and I worship him through my happy and troubled times!

The tragic events served as an indicator to me, to draw me back closer to the Lord. To open my eyes and realize that better things are YET to come!

Though I may have a painful and broken heart now, I know I will be healed through Him.

For those who are experiencing the same thing as I am, pray to the Lord. The Lord will comfort you with His love and grace for Jesus is an ever loving and forgiving God.

The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit. (Psalm 34:18)

Pray for the person who broke your heart.

Pray for the people who are affected by it.

Pray...

as the Lord always listens.

Come What May

It has been a very rough, confusing month for me.

I've experienced emotions that brought me joy and sorrow during this past month.

I've regretted the taste of negativity, the dark cold emotions which caused so much damage.

I've regretted being jealous, which led me into doubt. This eventually destroyed something I cherished for so long, something I would love and planned to keep till my dying day. I'm so sorry.

I've regretted being so easily ticked off towards my loved ones, which caused hurt and pain towards both sides. My actions are wrong and I would take them back if I could. I'm so sorry.

I've regretted being so irresponsible and inconsiderate. This has destroyed so much trust that people had placed inside me. I'm so sorry.

All this, it is from my heart. I feel it.

It troubles me to the point I cannot sleep well at night.

It disturbs me, and I know it will not go unless I repent, ask for forgiveness and fix my habits and actions.

My dear readers, if I have done anything that may have hurt you. Anything that may have caused a great barrier in our relationship. I am sorry and please forgive me. You know who you are.

You have the option of accepting or declining my resentment, and I would not force you into choosing.

I'm here to repent, clear my conscience and learn from my mistakes.

I hope with time, we could get back together, enjoy each other's presence and have fun like we used to.

Come what may, I would fight for what's best for us.

With this I know, joy will eventually come.

I'm nobody's fool!

:D