It has been a very rough, confusing month for me.
I've experienced emotions that brought me joy and sorrow during this past month.
I've regretted the taste of negativity, the dark cold emotions which caused so much damage.
I've regretted being jealous, which led me into doubt. This eventually destroyed something I cherished for so long, something I would love and planned to keep till my dying day. I'm so sorry.
I've regretted being so easily ticked off towards my loved ones, which caused hurt and pain towards both sides. My actions are wrong and I would take them back if I could. I'm so sorry.
I've regretted being so irresponsible and inconsiderate. This has destroyed so much trust that people had placed inside me. I'm so sorry.
All this, it is from my heart. I feel it.
It troubles me to the point I cannot sleep well at night.
It disturbs me, and I know it will not go unless I repent, ask for forgiveness and fix my habits and actions.
My dear readers, if I have done anything that may have hurt you. Anything that may have caused a great barrier in our relationship. I am sorry and please forgive me. You know who you are.
You have the option of accepting or declining my resentment, and I would not force you into choosing.
I'm here to repent, clear my conscience and learn from my mistakes.
I hope with time, we could get back together, enjoy each other's presence and have fun like we used to.
Come what may, I would fight for what's best for us.
With this I know, joy will eventually come.
